It was a lovely warm sunny day that got to 11C or 52F. But, we had some frozen rain to deal with until the sun shone and melted it.
We headed into the city to Christmas shop and had a great day together. We snooped and looked and bought nearly 1/3 of the gifts. I will do two more shopping days and we will be done.
Our favourite stop of the day was at the book store. The Spousal Unit wanted to buy several books to read and I went in to snoop around. I love snooping around as I usually find great books.
I got the Dude his night before Christmas book. It is the Canadian version of Jingle Bells. A good book with enough adult humour in it to keep the adults’ attention.
It goes with A Porcupine in a Pine Tree that we got him last year.
The second book purchased was on smoking meat, done by a pit master. The recipes look delicious and now we want a copy of the book.
The third book is Sweater Design in Plain English by Maggie Righetti of which I started to read. I had a really good think when I read about yarn-aholics. She was once one until she downsized her house. I have a small yarn stash compared to others and have made a pact to knit it up before I buy any new yarn. It has been hard as I found white sock yarn I wanted. It didn’t come home with me. Hopefully by the end of December I will have all the baby yarn knit up and then start on the worsted weight yarn. I am doing fine with this.
As I thought about stashes, I rolled the thoughts over to my sewing stash. I want to downsize it also. I went through the emotional attachment to the fabric and know I am no longer attached to some of it. Other pieces I am emotionally attached to. I have a feeling that when I go through the fabric I have, a lot of it could be taken out of circulation and given away. I am feeling more settled in some ways over this.
Next, I read the chapter titled Overcoming Your Fear. She ended the chapter with this paragraph:
It is not mistakes that we need to fear. Mistakes are not our undoing. It is the fear of failure that is the horror. The fear itself is the terrible monster stalking in the dark……..
I have the Dude’s sweater sitting in a basket not finished. I like pattern or but but am not sure the colour is right for him. I started out with one pattern, hated parts of it and loved other parts of it. I then succumbed to knitting it in a plain knit one/purl one row in a solid brown. I didn’t do the rib stitch I loved on the first pattern which was a big mistake as it would have given it some appeal. I will finish it up and give it away. It is not for the Dude. I will try again later this year when I get over the horror of that mistake. In the meantime, I will make lemonade out of this sweater by learning how to sew it together in a more professional way.
As I knit quietly during the last part of the evening, I let my thoughts roam to my sewing. I want to sew for myself. Am I afraid that I will choose the wrong patterns to sew? Am I afraid it won’t fit me? Did I buy the wrong fabric? The questions swirled in my head trying to understand why I won’t sew for myself. I let all thoughts niggle in my head and have worked through a bit of a plan.
Let the exploring begin.
I have a t-shirt I love. I have patterns for t-shirts including the Sure Fit design pattern system. I have lots of fabric for t-shirts that I bought at huge discounts. I will take the t-shirt I love due to its fit, work around one pattern and sew one out of a piece of knit fabric. If it turns out, I will make a couple more and then turn my attention to another t-shirt pattern and work on it. I can accept that there will be failures but I want to beat the t-shirt monster stalking in the dark. It will be step one to getting a TNT pattern or maybe a couple of patterns to sew t-shirts.
I am happy and am heading out to run.