Pondering The Future

 Yesterday was one lovely sunny fall day. The high got to 21.1C. This morning it is cloudy and 12C. We will have some showers this morning and then sun/clouds this afternoon and a high of 20C.

Lifestyle

I spent some time on the phone with the wellness facilitator at the hospital talking about my plan. She read the report on my x-rays and has suggested I get referred to a specialist starting the process of having both the hip and knee replaced. She has agreed with my plan of action and told me to get the report for both physiotherapy and osteopathy. The doctor's office sent me the report. I plan on getting referred to the specialist for the right side as my left knee is wearing out also. 

I finished cleaning my bedroom. It took a bit of time as I did an extra good job on cleaning the furniture. I took canned air to my grandmother's treadle sewing machine and got rid of old dust and dirt. The floors were swept and washed and the room put back together. It smelled nice and fresh in there and everything looks good. Now I can think about decorating it. 

I did my yoga exercises and wonder what new ones I will get now that we know what is wrong with me. I will know on Wednesday. I also walked 1.4 km yesterday. It was a nice walk in the sunshine. I did follow my eating plan as I begin the journey of loosing the last of my weight. 

Elliott and I enjoyed the sunshine yesterday. He slept on the back of the couch and cooked in the sun. 

He slithered off panting from getting too hot. I went over to visit my friend and her sister and we sat outside enjoying the sunshine. I helped get a pair of mitts ready for her to finish. We had a great time visiting. 

Sewing

I didn't go into the sewing room yesterday. I am wondering if I should sew the quilt together or do quilt as you go. It is going to come down to how will I quilt it. I have ideas for the quilting but it would be easier to do the design if the quilt was one piece. My question is -- do I want to wrestle a 48 x 60" quilt on my sewing machine? I am thinking hard on what to do. 

I thought about selling all my sewing/craft items once again. It is part of how I deal with bad news. It isn't going to happen but it has made me realize how I need to get the sewing room/craft stuff under control now and not later. It isn't about sewing down the stash but making sure I am not over buying fabric, etc. My plans for sewing are one that requires me make decisions that will allow me to meet my goals sooner rather than later. 

Knitting

I finished the left front of the vest last night. I got the decreasing done quite easily. The neck was the same rows each cable repeat. Only the arm changed which was fairly easy to keep track of. 

The vest could be finished in a couple of weeks at the rate it has knit up. Picking up the stitches around the neck and armholes take a lot of time as I like to space them evenly. I will get it done and enjoy wearing it. 

Thoughts

    The sunny weather yesterday certainly drew me outside. I thoroughly enjoyed putting other things aside as this weather won't last forever. It was even hard to finish cleaning the bedroom in the morning as the sunshine was calling me to go outside. 

    I am worrying about how I will deal with the surgeries. I am mainly worried about the loss of my independence before and after the surgeries. This has made me realize how independent I am and how much I hate being a burden on people. 

    I had periods of feeling despondent/depressed the last two days. I am talking to myself to get over this as I know it is part of the shock of bad news. I have been trying so hard to get well and felt like I had failed. The self talk is all about taking care of myself and getting well. The end goal is different than the one I had but a lot of what I am doing is the same. As long as I can do it, I will work on my goals of self care and getting my home clean and organized. I will move forward and be okay. I needed a few days to process everything. I am not ready to move from my home yet. 

Today

I have to work on getting parcels ready to mail today. I want to tidy the kitchen, sweep and mop floors and do yoga. My walk today will be shorter. I hope to spend a bit of time in the sewing room and knit tonight. 

Until the next time..................................................................